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Sunday, February 9, 2003
WEll... life is crazy , go figure)-
good week end but could have been great, tony and mike fight at tonys house agin (expected)!
Missed bidwell show -feel like a dick , but I was intimidated by the size of the place, i am very chlostrophobic, an di hear it was small but will still be interested in checkin it out some time.
need money
(trying modeling)yeah thats right,
hey! fuck you!!
DOnt know my place in the grl I like's life yet <--lame,
still winter, hmm Yeah!
Then I am still fuckin angery at the world.
Sunday, January 19, 2003
I guess when it all comes down to it I really cant trust in reality. some things happened tonight that could lead to a disaster and a new world. but to all who cant see the between lines , I guess its another day with pressure on those who want recession. The chain of events could back lash into the worst case scenario, or it could snow ball into a dream that could have only happened thanx to being a scandal.
tonight dreamers will Dream and I will wonder there vivid thoughts as i stress and fustrate over something I cant control.
Wednesday, January 1, 2003
7:04PM
WEll I went from friday up untill New Years with party's every night, a nice week of recovery would do me just fine.
REsults -
*Injuries* - left and right hand are hurt from punching bag, head wounded from fire place, lip burnt from roach,heart(no comment), liver (probably really angry with me).
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
10:36PM
I feel as though I am pathetic, and i need to prioritize my life a little bit better, but for now i will chill with friends and do not much more with my life
Monday, December 9, 2002
10:00PM
I have serious problems, winter, and how it depresses me. I know it sounds like a bunch of bull shit but I am manic depressant and I Dont Want To Live When it is winter. I was so up set that I decided to flip Candy this week-end. I never express true emotion around people, especially my friends, but this saturday I for the First time felt like I truly was happy and my self, for well at least 7 hours.
It scares me that it takes that much to make me happy.
Maybe If I could only find a female partner for a while, at least a friend, but I wasnt looked seriously at, that year. I cant believe it, when I think about it it makes me sick to my twisted fucking stomach, I didnt really have any friends freshmen year. I hated my self but for some reason I would remove the head phones and talk, and in those moment's, but gained the most respect and care for individual's then I haveny ever given thought to in a long time. But due to the crude politics of high school, I dont think any one has ever truly treated me as myself. But this is life and in my life there are not usually happy endings.
Current mood:  depressed Current music: The Crystal Method, trip like i do
Thursday, December 5, 2002
8:33PM
I am the most lonely person I know,
And for a manic depressant, that is always a good thing right?
The absence of care can not be fulfilled with medication. Pills are not a supplement for the cure of happiness, they are the cure of exceptance of unhappyiness.
There will be no more paxel, zoloft,or prozac
My mind will for ever be truthful
8:33PM
I am the most lonely person I know,
And for a manic depressant, that is always a good thing right?
The absence of care can not be fulfilled with medication. Pills are not a supplement for the cure of happiness, they are the cure of exceptance of unhappyiness.
There will be no more paxel, zoloft,or prozac
My mind will for ever be truthful
Wednesday, November 20, 2002
11:47PM
one day I will play well, until then I strum!
realized 2 things 1.my life's on track
2.my mind is on a tangent else where.
just want out! Why does any one want to stay in one spot, every day I wake up and do the same basic things in my life, it is once in a life time experiences that make life worth wile, what I don't understand is that each day these opportunities could arise, "but not here"! not If I don't start going with my gut instead of what is regularly done.
I hate where I live!
I need excitement and new experiences, I mean face the fucking facts, life is pointless, so why do we take it for granted everyday that it isn't.
I wish one day i can live every day to the fullest!
until then I waste and rot and fester in what I call my life!
Current mood:  creative Current music: cypress hill, Dr.Green thumb
Sunday, November 10, 2002
You say that you cant relate
pictures in your mind, you will never find
The words just emphasize the commercialized guy, but its meaning of pre-determind time has no emphasis in my eyes
Crutches are just for the worries that come to never heal, but to falsely fix, for the comical dismiss of a priority or problem that resulted from a wrong perception of some common ground that Its more like all from one than one from none. don't dismiss the false ignorants or hidden bliss, that for what isn't known has never been shown, and as we progress,we can only look back on the first time you encountered, your first time.
Fools play the game that everyone says is the way, regardless of encounters of the same sort of struggle, They think cures are for problems, but i think that some problems came from others cures, like burning gas, and oil spills, all probably just to save our world, and this only being economical, what about the mental aspects.
Tuesday, October 29, 2002
Guitar picks are like lighters!
abstinence can lead to being a prick!
too much of any thing is just that!
THC is a Far Greater drug then Alcohol!
If just for once every one just did there own thing together, every one would be satisfied.
End
*I think I am going to be drug free (not counting THC)for a long time!
I was approached by a grl and I was surprised to here that the only reason she didnt like me was because I was an avid toker, honestly I was really hurt, but not once did I even try to relay her ethics behind it.
I am who I am and
I dont Want any one to point out my faults,
just as im sure know one wants me going around and stating everything that isnt morally excepted amungst every one in todays society. So honestly if my habits in some way offend you then by all means maybe I am on to something, because i probably wouldnt want you around in the fucking first place!
Monday, October 28, 2002
I am still hung over from sat- belive it or not, but i put my (drunkin)All into breaking anything I could in my house. I was awokin sun. by Wayne at noon and luckily they make a plant or sumthin that takes away all of your problems and your nausea. Wow and he had some!bad part, I guess it only works for like 1/2 hour DAmn! well after my little moment of painless peace i went to waynes to watch a movie after the movie i realized i was too hung over and i went home I fell asleep around 4:00pm sun having only a couple of grapes and a half of apple to eat and woke up this morning around 10:30am, still sick and hateing alcohol
Sunday, October 13, 2002
2:21PM
I feel like i am waisting my day vegin out, and every one i call isnt picking up or isnt home, well hey i can always just sit around here and type on my computer like a good little board mother fucker!
Tuesday, October 8, 2002
11:05AM
I need to find a new job, one in the foods and hospitalities department-
Then i need to get my god damn other boss to pay me for the last few checks that he has not given me
Wednesday, October 2, 2002
9:56PM
Notice:
BRAD IS GOING DISC GOLFING-
When you ask?!-FRIDAY-04
TIME? To be determined- OUT of school buy 10:30
INteReSteD?
CAll ME or LEaVe A poST rePly
Joinies will have to except the fact that there may be some drinking(I can at least count on you cant, I Mike?) and smoking of strange herb (If Warren Permit's)
11:13AM
There is only one thing I can think of to brighten my mood and that is a severe natural disaster resulting in a massive death rate!.
no I'm just fucking around,
"but a little rain would be nice"
Tuesday, October 1, 2002
6:57PM
another dull unsatisfying day, yup thats about it... but I am goin to hm-comin with my friend Michelle now,and I think we should have a great time,
Other then that I got alot done around the house
but this was only because i went to work uniformed that it was closed hmm go figure. now i have to make up at least6 hours for my co-op and it will probably be sometime this weekend.
Sometimes you just need a break.
I still dont under stant the damn D.E.A. wow take our bud so we can...smoke crack? shoot up? become alcho's! man if only the government could raise our kids!
Current mood:  accomplished
Monday, September 30, 2002
I got up to realize wasn't feeling that darn dandy, I decided aginst enhanceing my education today, so I slept in I also quickly decided that I had had enough of not being happy and I came to one conclusion---- to get the fuck out of the house---(for good), but I couldnt just say hey Im fuckin outtie c ya later. I have to be reasonable about this, so I am simply taking a few steps to freedom. I discussed this with my one parental unit in-which I like, and it said fine but I had to still attend school, (uhhgg like i was goin to drop out)--cuz then I would be cool!
I have to take these preparations in this particular order.
1.Fix up car- reason-> sell car- reason-> pay off debts!
2.Establish a second job with a steady income.
3.Buy a van (cheap van)
4.Find a couple other people who think they can put up with me, and also need a nice change of more independence in there lives. And can pay their share without trying to fuck me over.
5.Make this all hapin with in the next month!
ANy one Interested???
Saturday, September 28, 2002
I hate people. (no one in particular)
There is no god.(boo fuckin hoo!)
I hate driving in cars.
I never get laid.
I like marijuana.
beer & I are really startin to work things out
I am lathargic due to lack of exercise.
(I wish I could say it was the weed!- but there is NONE!)
disc golf was a succes today with TB & bondera.
I have nothing in comin with any females I know of.
I hate my father figure.
I hate my house.
I especially hate Warren.
I hate my car,job,and i hate the money i want but dont have
and if i could find a way to peace of mind i would recreate my self.
but when it all comes down to it i think every body isnt fully satisfied.
but I would like a free sample tough, please!
Monday, September 23, 2002
IT has been a summer, since i wrote in my lj but hey i am gettin a little bit more free time and i could use a little self control, well at least thought controll!. i am in quite a perdicamint, i need to find a home coming date, and may be even a grl friend, shit i have had nothing tangable in my life in over 2 years help!!!
Sunday, April 7, 2002
What can i say it all started soo goood...
I woke up at like 6 and got a hair cut and a shower, the i was off to the A.C.T.'s which was scaring the hell out of me.Infact i practically downed a bottle of pebto-bismoth I arrived around 25 to 8 and met some fellow classmates up in the front of the school. i then went into a eary room with people i didnt know , (you know the best possible enviornment for teenage test taking). I patientally awaited my exam, i start working on it but all i could think about was going to ***hash BaSH***, so it came time to finish up the first section of the test I wasnt but 1/2 way done so i walked out and decided i would take it later.. So now my day is clear no work ect, and i left early so i could make it over to pick up chris and briskie and be on my way to ***hash bash***. everything was going so smoothly then BAM my transmiton goes out and my RPM's sky rocket, and my car remains at a steadly decresing 30mph.So NOW i AM thinkin awsome so i decide to pull over and c waht is wrong, or see if it would baisically fix its self. After a while of successless efforts to remain on our journy to annarbor, I look back and i see a sherif behind me on the shoulder of 696 over by orchard lake road, he then pulls directly behind us, AT this time i am thinking shit we r riding dirty and we had just toked a couple, "if you now what i am sayin," so i roll down the windows and straight up tell the cop my prob then quickly asked him to follow me so i could exit to the nerest gas station . by this time my fucking mother had fliped her fucking lid and begins some kind of midlife crisses-nervous breakdown bull shit. that really set the mood. SO my FAther arrives to try to get us home and i end up driving up 12mile for about 50 minutes. So there i sat with no ride - car, and no way to hash bash. NOW my day is over and i have accomplished little yet fell behind on soo much., ALl SUX TODAY IN LIFE BUT NUTHIN A LITTLE <(^)< store hydro cant take care of. Good NIGht and WE Wait for 420 to arive.
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